Every so often I have this dream of being 200 pounds lighter and having crazy, roll over, messy hair, sex. Then I wake up. I always tell myself "this is it I'm finally going to make the changes I need!" And then it gets too annoying, too sweaty, I work too much, too many tv shows, and it stops.
No more. I'm married with the hopes of bearing a child soon and I'm scared shitless that my weight might affect my ability to get pregnant. I'm beginning to waddle, my clothes are huge (I had to buy 2x work shirts!) and I hate looking at myself in the mirror. Never mind letting my husband penetrate me (I know, weird time to use this word).
I want to be happy. I want my husband to be happy. I NEED to be healthy.
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